I was driving to Pacifica with my dog, Roxxie, for the first appt with Kara. It was raining and a dreary morning or afternoon... I couldn't tell what time it was. The condo was really hard to find, but I finally arrived -- 10 mins late! I left the windows rolled down for Roxxie. As I got upstairs, I saw Kara with her friends and she turned to them and said she needed to go since one of her patients were here and I heard something about borderline. When I asked her if she was Kara, she said "yeah" in a very dismissive manner. I immediately felt like crying and told her that I'm not going to see her and that I should've listened to my gut from the beginning. I left to make my way back to my car.
I have no idea how I made it into her home, but in the next part of my dream I was there with her in front of a sink. She was there with an elderly lady whom I saw in my periphery. I felt so awkward being there, so I made a comment about a dog who was sitting to the side of me. But my interaction felt very forced.
That is about all that I can remember. When I woke up, I asked myself why it was that I would've returned to a place that gave me bad vibes from the beginning and then after meeting her, it was confirmed by her condescending and dismissive manner that it was not a good place for me. I don't have an answer.
Emotions and feelings experienced in the dream: anxiety, stupid, awkward, judgmental, rejected, & shame.
BTW... after having my session with Kara today, she definitely did not resemble the person in my dream. She is very warm, a good listener, and understanding.
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